The Death of Me and The Rising of Drupadi; a Memoir 2022 has been my biggest roller-coaster ride ever (yet so far). The goddess of Drupadi entered my embodiment of the "masculine" body at the beginning of 2020 and she has now emerged since. I identify myself as a Transgender Woman, Javanese, and both of my parents born in Indonesia and are not be able to speak English, at all. Being the first, maybe the only person who is fluent in English has opened up my horizon about many things, especially about my Gender Identity. Many of the books and kinds of literature are very much Heteronormative friendly since LGBTQIA+ "Agendas" have been suppressed not only by the society but also by the Indonesian government. It is such a devastating realm that in Indonesia many of the Queers have been conditioned to be shut and also targeted. I grew up in Yogyakarta, Indonesia where traditional customs and monarchs are still the fundamental values of the people. I spent most of my
